What Do You Do When Your Heart is Bleeding with Emotions

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I heard a song this morning and I can say the emotions were flooding with memories of past, present and future but we all know, you can’t change the past, you can’t decide the present and you certainly can’t control the future.

I get so frustrated when I see happy people, how they about their business like nothing can bring them down. I don’t think I was ever that happy in my life, pretending to be had become such a show that even now, I hide behind my suffering and disappointment.

I blurted out this morning to my boyfriend: he said “it is a good day to have a good day” and all I could think of was “if that’s what you think, you are with the wrong person”.

He truly has no idea how unhappy I am and for the most part, I hide it very well. Even my son doesn’t know and I don’t want him to know. He is doing so well now in his life, I don’t want to mess that up for him.

My job in life now, I discovered the other day is to make sure he is on the right path. I have screwed up my life so much it is beyond repair and I do not want that for him. I will stand tall and make damn sure he continues on his growth journey.

All that being said, I keep busy with creations, writing my thoughts and working that unfulfilling job.

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