this week i have been thinking about how to create a good lifestyle and i mean good in a way that expresses capability. when you have no means, you can’t have or create the life you want and as sad as this seems, i must at least be grateful i am still breathing.
i don’t want to sound selfish but i feel as though the people around me always seem to have more than they deserve. a person works really hard to make a living or be successful and ends up with absolutely nothing to show for it.
they say having a plan is a good thing but what if my pencil is broken?
i keep saying i need just one more chance to build again and maybe i will be able to find my purpose and perspective. the internet is a fun place at best but it can also make you realize how unlucky some people make you feel.
social media has taken a back seat for me only because it is filled with chaos and negativity. i can’t deal with it more or less but it has been a more calming look at what i can do in this time of need.
i also missed a day somewhere, i thought it was friday yesterday.
my focus is very blurred and it is really creating a big concern. i keep wondering if others around the world are feeling the same. fill the void they say with positive things but trying to find that is nearly impossible, isn’t it.