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pissing off your neighbors

revenge is sweet isn’t it? my neighbors kept me up the last 2 nights with their bullshit and as i love to get up early, i decided it was time for payback. i have this fog horn, it is amazing, so as i woke, i let it go on both sides of the house. what a wake up call for 7am.

then i decided to test my speakers on my pc, turning up all kinds of rock n’ roll. i am sure by now they are wondering what the hell is going on because they are to stupid to understand the method behind my madness and frankly i don’t give a shit. this is what happens when people keep me up all night.

that’s it right? do on to others.

i am a quiet person but every once in a while, the other beast pops out, the one who wants to break free from the normal and let it all hang out. i used to have so much fun when i was young, not a care in the world, taking chances and most of all enjoying music. i realized some time ago that i have forgot the days of music.

oh did i mention i used to sing too. ya, some other dream that never got fulfilled.

the moment a person realizes something is missing in their lives, they begin to question what the hell they are doing. the trick is find that one thing that brings you back to a time when nothing could bring you down. the feeling of happiness you can only get from absolution and the necessity to find it.

i spoke with a friend yesterday about making ourselves happy, being satisfied with the ‘you factor’. funny, i have never had that feeling; the idea of making yourself happy. it has always been about everyone or everything else around me. even when i was on vacations to that wonderful place i connect with: the beach. there was always something blocking my ultimate happiness.

dreams of being important, giving purpose to my life or even a need to find satisfaction have all diminished over the years. another friend said once, “you don’t live to work but work to live.”

imagine that.

so which is it, do we constantly keep searching for that happy medium or do we just settle for what is in front of us?

i’ll let you know when i decide.

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