i don’t get out much but once a week i make a point of going shopping just to see the atmosphere. i can honestly say, people are not happy. no matter what town you reside in, i am sure the same is for everyone. we are all in a circle of chaos and wonder. we don’t know what to expect next and we certain aren’t sure how this 2020 will end.
am i right?
i don’t write much these days as spending a lot of time on my computer has hurt my vision. unfortunately i need new glasses and while i wait for those to come in, the headaches are worse than ever. so, i am less and less on the pc because of it.
today though, i thought i’d spruce things up a bit and try a new layout. therefore, creativity has kicked in and waiting is not an option. we all want to be better, we all want the world to get back to normal but i am afraid that this normal will not happen. all we can do is take one day at a time and see where it takes us.
as my search continues for employment, great expectations on my part wishing someone would notice my talents and experience, work has become more and more invisible. it is hard to find good jobs and even those that will accept you. i have been rejected so many times for work, i had to clean out my email inbox in order to make room for new ones.
i think maybe the fear there is that people worry i either will take over the company or maybe it is something i am not doing right. i don’t know because i never get feedback from my interviews. really disappointing because it would be good to know.
i also had a thought today that 2 years ago this month, i gave up a long time career to be sitting here doing now is really depressing.
i keep asking the same question: why didn’t anyone stop me or find the right words to make me understand the mistake i was making.
i’ll tell you why, they didn’t give a shit. that’s my story and i am sticking to it.