we are supposed to know what we want from a young age but without a doubt some of us are side tracked to do what is the right thing to survive in this ever changing world.
a little boy asked me this morning, ‘what I wanted to be or if busing is what I had intended for myself’ – cute kid. “I laughed”
Although I love the transportation business, it has many perks, people, places, adventures and good pay. however, it isn’t my passion and I truly believe if you are passionate about something, you should pursue it.
so what the hell happened to me?
I have to say the word encouragement comes to mind and knowledge. I believed that in order to be human, you worked and paid your bills. ignore the goals, ( I have said this before ) but when you do not have the support system in place, you just do what is expected of you. my life has been turned inside out for many years and now I have taken another turn.
trapped is a word I am so familiar with that is bares explaining.
“if we only had the tools to survive without struggling. How life would be so much easier and more pleasant.”
my recent goal was to search for my happiness; knowing is the first step to progress and realizing that maybe transportation isn’t for me was a big accomplishment. money is another factor; used to the lifestyle of putting money into savings and always being able to buy what I want was hard work.
why should I work hard anymore, really?
I want to do what I love best, make a living, and find ways to save for those wonderful trips. I had another and finally thought; someone said something to me this morning that kind of pissed me off. the phrase was more or less that I was not worthy of a good job.
seriously, this person said that and it made me feel really worthless. how can people be so mean? I guess because they are feeling bad about something they felt a while ago and wanted to bring it to the surface.