I realized the other day something was seriously bothering me. I took a few photos and saw the real me and I feel the reason for my inner difficulties. then it happened …
I saw the real me, what I had become, how I aged and the reality was I couldn’t stand looking at my face. I do realize no 2 people are the same, when people make babies, do they not consider maybe when they grow up, ugly will appear.
even as a young girl, I knew, for the most part, I was not attractive. probably why I strived on being smart. the hard part is that it makes me also realize why all the men I was interested in, never took a second look. they saw me ugly and even though I had sex appeal and smarts, the outside is all that mattered.
i can begin to tell you how much this hurts me.
being pretty and sexy is very important to me and when I see these women who can accept themselves, all shapes and forms, well, maybe they should really look at a picture. sorry but this is my personal opinion.
there is nothing anyone can do to change the way a person feels. nothing.